Father,
The minibus I am in is filling up slowly. Earlier, I asked a young redaat where the minibus I needed was. The boy pointed at this one, made a straight face, and told me that I should greet him properly first. The moment I messed up his short brown hair and told him how lovely he was, he shrank into the little kid he was.
By the time I got into the minibus, he'd already gotten back his croaked voice to call on more passengers.
I was one of the first people to get into that vehicle, and since it wasn't close to rush hour, I knew it'd be a while before we started moving. Once inside, I clicked my play button and continued listening to the songs on my playlist. Right then, one of the songs there took me back to last year.
At the time, something I kept wondering about was whether there was a way of escaping pain-and everything that sucked. And I thought that if there were a way out, I would have to find it, whether it was a risky thing to do or not.
I had nothing substantial to lose then. To join You, I had to be willing to leave behind whatever I thought I had. Any ego or identity that can perish with my body couldn't define me anymore. So whatever couldn't survive the grave had to go to the grave already. I had to be willing to lay my life down to get a real life. My daily routines and back and forths and minibus rides into nowhere aren't how You define life. Thanks to You, that's not how I define life either now.
Thank You for Your definition of life, Father. I wouldn't have had it in me to lay down everything I clung to if I didn't learn about what You offered instead.
So, thank You so much for that. And Father, may the little boy I met be abundantly blessed too.
Love,
-w
If then you were raised with Christ, seek those things which are above, where Christ is, sitting at the right hand of God. Set your mind on things above, not on things on the earth. For you died, and your life is hidden with Christ in God. When Christ who is our life appears, then you also will appear with Him in glory.
Colossians 3:1-4 NKJV